This is sort of a depressing blog, as it's been something on my mind. There's a local anime convention this weekend, and I thought about going, but I really have no urge to go, and there's a lot of hidden ... disgruntlements? I've had with cosplay for almost 10 years now.
When I started going to cons and cosplaying at 13/14, I really wanted to meet like minded people who just wanted to nerd out and have fun, and the local cons in my area were the perfect place to do it. I had met so many wonderful people who I still keep in my heart to this day (Devon and Faith especially!!! Some of my OGs I've known for over 10 years now!!). There was such a joy in meeting up with friends and just hanging out, and sitting around the con, buying a cute little trinket, and just having fun.
Once I hit college and started going to the bigger cons, something negative started creeping up, and remained until covid, and then reappeared post-covid. I realized a few years ago I was spending all this money but the socializing never really came back the same way. And I know if I look hard enough, I can get the same experience I had when I was younger, so maybe I just need to try that again.
I will say when I went to dashcon last year, it was the closest I ever felt to that wonderful feeling again. I met so many wonderful people and I'm so devastated I can't go this year.
I think my goals to enjoy cosplay and maybe even cons again are to limit the cons I go to, and only go for the sake of friends. Katsucon and CTGamercon were so fun because I got to see so many friends! Otakon is going to be fun because I will see so many friends!!! Zenkaikon last year was fun because once again!!! So many friends!!!!
I think in general, I do want to try more crafting. I was going to attempt to make Lebanne for Otakon, but I think Devon and I talked about just doing cute outfits and making this more of a vacation which includes going to a con vs just a con. Also my arda order is still on backorder so... lol....
I also have a lot of costumes I have been meaning to fix up. I think maybe I'll try to document this and work on it to keep myself accountable!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!! It'll happen!! But first... Mini Bacc class.