Last Updated 9/22 - A Growing document where I talk about daily lenses I've ordered from pushcolor

In order for me to get back into blogging and pass the time and also to just give my thoughts on various lenses, I wanted to go ahead and just document my thoughts.

For disclaimers, I don't make any money from pushcolor, I order these bad boys with my lenses myself. I'll try to get to linking them all as I get there. I'll talk about brands in general, and then get into Specifc Lenses.

I won't talk about the cosplay lenses I've purchase from here in much detail as they're one off, not worn for daily use. Opaque as hell and does the job. Ok cool nice.

The favorites

Loveil

This was recommended to me by someone and honestly... thank you for that! This is a gal staple brand imo, and a lot of the lenses are also a good size for daily non make use too. I find them super comfy to wear, and even with my light eyes, /most/ of the colors do show up very well.

The 15.0 MM series are nice for very big and fun eyes. I think if you have blue eyes though, the Navy and Black Bijou can give a similar effect. Same with Honey Trick and Arcadia. 

Pushcolor PLEASE RESTOCK ARCADIA BLONDE I LOVE ARCADIA BLONDE PLEASE

Resay

I only got Heaven's Sky and it's very similar to Loveil's mermaid aqua. I think the brand is cute and the lenses were comfy, I may play around with them more in the future, especially trying other colors. A lot of reiwa gals wear Resay hence I tried 'em out.

Fabulous - King Brown

I only have purchased one lens from Fabulous, and my goodness is it beautiful! I think it's perfect for a cutesy hime gyaru look! Super opaque!!! Super big and dolly! 

Gal Never Die

Another classic gal collection. I find them similar to loveil! Very comfy, and I really like the chocolate lenses for sure. I think the only lenses I'm not a fan of are the white lenses, but that is because they really don't add much to light eyes.

N's Collection

These are moreso good for normal everyday wear instead of gyaru wear. I found my favorites to be Umi and Tempura to be really good, and the lenses were super comfy. The only thing about Umi is the lenses aren't weighted, so the lighter part can just like... go wherever and look funny lol.

Blueberry Jam and Matcha Latte? They barely show up on my eyes... This was when I learned "No purple purple does not show up!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Twinkle Eyes

Talk about a gal brand!!!!!!!!!!! I honestly want to get more of these lenses as the Sky Gray was really nice, super comfy, and yes ofc similar to other blue lenses, but Twinkle Eyes is more opaque if anything, and I love a good opaque look in my lenses.

The OK

Primore

I bought the Pri ring Pink, no crazy comments on the lenses, they didn't show up super well on my eyes and that is when I learned no pink lenses! no pink lenses! They do not show up! The 15mm is cute but it's... whatever.

Ferenne

They're not too bad. Comfy, but I once again tried a pink lens and it did NOTHING for me. Looked GREAT on my friend MJ who wore them for a cosplay as it was a last minute thing (yay for similar vision and they're daily lenses so they never were shared by eyeballs!!!) Comfy lenses, a bigger dolly eye vibe, but not great for lighter eye colors.

Bambi Series

I think I literally only got blueberry moon. They were cute and big but they're also blue... so if I am to get a big blue lens I will just go with Loveil. They were comfy from what I recall, but it's been so long.

Fomomy

Good for casual, some with a limbal ring can work for gal. I found these comfortable to get in my eyes. I don't think I'd order these again, I used the coupon for the brand release.

The no thank yous

Barrieyes

I got these when I was using the coupon and wanted some more tamer lenses. They were great for casual non make looks but my GOD they took forever to get in and stung like a bitch. I wash my hands. I ensure my lenses are all set, but dear lord did I have to take these out early during my night shifts.

9/22 - Summer looks! (It was pretty tame)

 It's fall!! Life is so different now... but I want to talk about some of the looks I did in the summer!

The bad news, having two jobs makes it hard sometimes to have time to put looks together. Also, summer makes it hard to go OTT agejo. So a lot of looks were with my normal hair. But I'll try to group them a bit!!!

Fun experimental look - full cap wigs

Though... I did some looks with full cap wigs, which I feel like my inspiration was more of the korean gals who don't do super crazy hair looks, sometimes a straight and easy hair style works. I also played around with darker hair colors which I always find fun!! I also think for OTT lolita looks, a full wig works. I do love a good prisila, but it's hard to experiment with different colors with these wigs.

 

Also photo with Darcy and Dev hehe!!!

Not too crazy - Ane Agejo for summer

I decided instead of going towards summer alba rosa core this year (I did... buy another alba coat this winter tho lol.... whoops)... I wanted to go towards more of the ane agejo look. Datura, Rady, and Delyle Noir are just so fun and comfy, and a better price (... at times... why tf yall scalping datura now wtf). I am also 28, and sometimes want to give the vibe of a ... more mature woman? If that makes sense.

I think if anything... hair styling is going to be something I still need to work on. How tf  yall get such beautiful curls to STAYYYYY WTF... I also recently got my roots redone but I need to schedule a root touchup in like... october!!!

  

Ane Agejo except theyr'e date looks HEHE.... HEHE....

I won't go into detail about dating life because I like to keep it personal but it is going very well!!! Honestly my normal go to look is my babymetal club dress but there's been a few times we've done something fancier so I've dressed up a bit hehe... And ya girl still wears make... lenses... lashes... idgaf! 

And... lets discuss my flop... the ma*rs look.

The biggest thing that sucked about this look was it felt like I was... trying too much but not thinking a lot about it. I think if anything, I'd have a cute black cami to wear underneath which I didn't have at the time. I also think the dark hair with the minimal tan is not a look on me, and something about everything just felt off here. Like it wasn't me. I think I definitely want to keep this set around and try styling it in different ways. I also am like not a super big fan of my prisila TMGX wigs. I Think I do prefer to be blonde but like a slightly darker blonde... does this make sense. 

OK!!! Enough for now! Now that it is fall, I hope to wear more cutesy stuff but make it warm, and then I am also hoping for a few kyabajo nights ya... yaaa!!!!

8/17 - Things I regret buying as a gal

 Trying to be more mindful of my purchases and I thought I would go through and type out some various types of purchases of things I've regretted buying. This way I can look back on it and truly think about my purchase history and stop myself before buying it again. I'm also just trying not to doom scroll on my phone so I figured just typing out my thoughts here would be good!

• + Items for a one time look - I always want to wear something new and unique to fun events, in a way I think it's to show up and beat my previous look, but honestly... what's wrong with a repeat... or changing it up in a fun way! But I've made many purchases that were a one time wear and I've looked at the item and said... wow I really have nowhere else to wear this now huh! A lot of this is the more glitzy old school kyaba dresses. My modern day kyaba dresses I can get away with wearing out more I think, but the frilly homecoming ones... its just more difficult!
• + Kiss Lash Glue - I don't know why, I can never go back to this since I used dollywink. It just never works right for me, my lashes will be falling off within an hour or two sometimes.
• + Heroine mascara and eyeliner - This might be controversial, but I just am not a fan. With the mascara, you really need to either scrub with an oil based cleanser or have the specific mascara remover. The liner also dries out super fast and it is hard to apply, even with the brush tip applicator which is my usual go to for liners. Very disappointing. Branding is very cute but agh.... 
• +Old pleather items. These peel so fast it's disappointing for real.
• +The same thing in another color - WHY BRENNA............ JUST PICK ONE COLOR...... I've started forcing myself to have one kyaba dress in each color (the only exceptions are blue and pink... I have 3 of each I fear). And if I like a style of dress, why get it in the same color? Just pick the color that works best.
• +Things other gals tell me I need. I'm starting to stop myself before listening to other gals because... am I buying the item to impress other gals? Or am I buying it because I really want it myself? There's been a massive push from gals and like... yes get your bag but I have to stop myself before being influenced I fear.
• +Purple lenses - They just don't fucking work on my blue eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I want a natural lens I gotta just go with blue!!!!!!!!!

8/13 - Shopping addiction is not fun. Addiction is not fun.

This is a personal post, in reaction to seeing someone mention a shopping addiction in a paid partnership promotion. I won't name this person as I don't want to send them any negativity, but I feel like the gal community always makes light of shopping addiction and consumer culture, but I know for me personally, this has been a very serious issue and I just feel like being a bit vulnerable about it might help someone else out.

I know I used to joke about it, but I've become more self aware of my problem as I have become a casino dealer, and I have become in much closer of a proximity to gambling addiction. Additionally, I've become more aware of people in my proximity with alcohol addictions. Addiction in general sucks, and its hard to get out of. I am sympathetic towards those in addiction, and at the same time, I've become hyper aware of myself and my shopping addiction. 

For me personally, shopping used to be the only way I felt in control of my life. Up until these past few years, I felt like my life was being decided for me. I felt like the outcome of my life depended on the decision of others, and my life was going in a direction I did not like. Shopping and buying things I enjoyed helped me feel more in control. It wasn't even with gal, there was the time I bought the same CD 30+ for the limited edition can badges. I would buy oodles and oodles of merchandise of my favorite characters to just stare at in my room.

With gal, it got worse with the clothes. There's so many clothes, lenses, accessories, wigs, just so much to be able to buy and it's hell. Opening a magazine and seeing a piece of clothing I HAD to have. There's also the flex culture in gal too, having the most brand, the most unique pieces, etc...  HELL! I own the same coat in 3 different colorways. I spent 2 grand on one of them out of pure fucking spite. It did have a serious effect on my shopping habits. Additionally, going to anime conventions did not help. Those places can be money pits if you're not careful. 

Where can this end up? Debt. Lots of debt. It's not fun, and being in an endless pit of debt where you try to crawl out, but then one relapse and months of hard work... fallen down the drain. 

It's not a fun marketing thing, you really need to think about what you buy, why you buy, and if you'll wear it. I have so many pieces in my closet I've yet to wear, I had items I bought years ago, wore once, and I am finally coming to terms I need to part with it for the sake of my sanity. It's not fun, it feels guilty to remove all the clothing. Also if you're reading this hounding for my wardrobe fuck off I have a queue of gals I ask first before I make it publicly available to anyone else.

I wanted to link a video I watched recently How brands sell to lonely girls

It hit a lot with me, a lot of the times I shopped was when I felt lonely or my life wasn't in control. Recently, there's been a big life event where I feel out of control, but I am going to take control of my life. There is also a life event where I feel like I'm in control and its balancing out well... it's nice. I think filling my life with things where I feel happy and in control... I'm less likely to spend money. Also less anime cons. I'm actually going to like. Maybe 1 next year. I plan to sort through my cosplays soon and like, purge a whole lot.

I do want to end this on a positive note, I recently looked at my finances, and applied and got approved for a loan to consolidate my debt. I should be able to pay it off in 4 years with the minimum payment. I'm going to be able to pay off one of my student loans at the end of this month, I'm going to really be able to start putting money aside in savings, I'm really excited for this new journey.

I'd also like to try and document the items I haven't coordinated and try to coordinate them. Maybe this is another post, but I've been transitioning from agejo to ane agejo/modern kyabajo, and with that, I've been cycling my wardrobe, but I think it's finally at a place I literally don't need anything else. But there's still a lot to wear... so I will do my best to wear them all.

TLDR... please don't joke about addiction in your marketing posts. Addiction is serious, it's not fun. 

6/2 - I want to enjoy cosplay again, but I can't figure out how.

 This is sort of a depressing blog, as it's been something on my mind. There's a local anime convention this weekend, and I thought about going, but I really have no urge to go, and there's a lot of hidden ... disgruntlements? I've had with cosplay for almost 10 years now.

When I started going to cons and cosplaying at 13/14, I really wanted to meet like minded people who just wanted to nerd out and have fun, and the local cons in my area were the perfect place to do it. I had met so many wonderful people who I still keep in my heart to this day (Devon and Faith especially!!! Some of my OGs I've known for over 10 years now!!). There was such a joy in meeting up with friends and just hanging out, and sitting around the con, buying a cute little trinket, and just having fun.

Once I hit college and started going to the bigger cons, something negative started creeping up, and remained until covid, and then reappeared post-covid. I realized a few years ago I was spending all this money but the socializing never really came back the same way. And I know if I look hard enough, I can get the same experience I had when I was younger, so maybe I just need to try that again.

I will say when I went to dashcon last year, it was the closest I ever felt to that wonderful feeling again. I met so many wonderful people and I'm so devastated I can't go this year.

I think my goals to enjoy cosplay and maybe even cons again are to limit the cons I go to, and only go for the sake of friends. Katsucon and CTGamercon were so fun because I got to see so many friends! Otakon is going to be fun because I will see so many friends!!! Zenkaikon last year was fun because once again!!! So many friends!!!! 

I think in general, I do want to try more crafting. I was going to attempt to make Lebanne for Otakon, but I think Devon and I talked about just doing cute outfits and making this more of a vacation which includes going to a con vs just a con. Also my arda order is still on backorder so... lol.... 

I also have a lot of costumes I have been meaning to fix up. I think maybe I'll try to document this and work on it to keep myself accountable!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!! It'll happen!! But first... Mini Bacc class. 

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5/9 - The bit continues: I talk about the Light Phone III

I just realized I never really updated on my thoughts on the light phone III now that I have it in my hands! I've had it for almost 2 months now, and I want to talk about it. 

The first point is I haven't fully gotten off my iPhone yet. I did move my sim card, but due to the MFA required, and having to have it on me at specific times right now for reasons I cannot get into, the phone is still pretty close by. I'm hoping by June where the reasons I cannot get into are no longer valid that I can really work on further disconnecting myself from using my iPhone.

In terms of the lightphone itself, I want to talk about aspects I use and my thoughts.

Texts - Not bad, aside from the fact that some Iphone only GCs are now permanently broken, where I can send texts but I cannot receive their texts. There's only 2 GCs affected, but it's still a pain. It can be weird to get used to texting, but I've gotten used to it after awhile.

Phone calls - Not too bad! No real issues so far except if I call someone when they call me at the same time, the phone bugs the HELL out.

Hotspot - Pretty nice. I only use it if I have my iphone on me and need to use it in a place I don't have wifi, or for longer GPS requirements.

GPS - This is pretty good, except I am a bit sad about the battery draining if the trip is more than 30 minutes. My current workaround is using my iphone, but I am hoping to get a garmin one day for my longer treks.

Photos - Cool! I have to plug it into my computer to upload them, but it's cool.

Music - 20 gigs.... ohhhhh this is great. Additionally it's uploading mp3s, so I can rip cds, purchase from bandcamp, etc. I just sort of wish there was a playlisting option.

I will say I am excited to see what additional items will come out, there's going to be some like community built features coming out eventually which is super cool to see. 

Overall, I don't regret this purchase, the next step is to just ensure that I get myself in the proper space to like... actually get off the iphone!!

5/9 - Local gal disappears

Wow!!!!!! It's been a bit!!!!!! This past month and a half has been really busy with the second job as well as dog watching, and I've been focused on starting some room renovations. It's been a bit weird not wearing as many codes but I've been working on make, so it's been fun to do that!

It's been weird since after I got my babymetalclub order and a dia setup.... I haven't bought a lot of new clothes. Which feels weird... but thats good!!!! 

This month, a lot of my spare spending money is going towards my room renovations, where I'm turning my office space into a closet and then turning my bed space into a non clothing space, that way I have one messy room and one clean room. I hope this makes sense... LOL. 

Once I get those done, I definitely want to share! It's kind of a mess right now so its just... difficult LOL!

The biggest thing I've struggled with is like holding off buying things until I REALLY need them. Like I want to also get a new comforter set and sheet set, but I am trying to hold off until I'm all set with moving my furniture around. I want to buy new dressers, but I'm nowhere near that step yet. The next step is actually putting together our vacuum to vacuum off all the wood dust that fell out when I was tearing the old dresser apart!!! And my god that was hard... it was not ikea furniture, it was old, rusting, and everything was hammered together. I understood why the old tenant left it as a "gift". And also not sponsored, I went on reddit to understand how my city's waste pickup worked, and turns out it is horrible, and someone said to try 1-800 got junk. It was about 300 bucks including the tip, but they picked it up, brought stuff down the stairs, and the cursed dresser is gone! Also, same day!!! And they showed up an hour earlier than estimated!! And they called me in advance to let me know!!! Ray and Keith were great!!! 

In terms of like... makeup and styling, I really need to get my roots redone, I have held off on doing them myself, but I need to schedule time and money to get it done. Also, I've been frustrated with my make recently, specifically my lashes and brows, so I picked up some new lashes to see if I can play around with them and make it work, as well as getting a hopefully yellow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! brow gel!!!! since all the blonde pencils I've purchases are like ash blonde and not yellow blonde. lol. lmao even.

Hopefully this summer is more fruitful!! Also I gotta blog NYC one day.. maybe not today.