3/13 - the mental struggle to stay in gal (which I guess isn’t hard)

 I really don’t have a lot this week chat. Saturday I should be dressing up and Sunday is a special birthday bingo! But this week I woke up starting Monday in extreme exhaustion, and then have been working on my apartment moving shenanigans which I am further behind than I’d like to be.

But today’s blog is a little vulnerable kind of blog. The fear of moving on from gal. Don’t worry! I won’t, I plan to keep this going, but I have this issue where I tend to hyperfocus on one big thing and throw myself at it while not focusing on other things. I’ve picked up a lot of my interests change depending on a shift in mental health cycle, and I went through a really rough cycle back in 2024, and it’s shifted recently which I won’t go into detail but… therapy is helping me process it.

For gal though, it’s kind of smart with how big my closet has gotten, I don’t need to feel pressure to spend money, I just have to keep pushing myself to wear the clothes. I think with mental health and physical exhaustion it has been hard, but I am hoping rest and a good therapy session next week will get me back into the proper swing of things.

Now you might wonder… Brenna what is the new focus? It might just be getting into cosplay more again, while also wearing gal out with friends. I have recently picked up fire emblem heroes for the 1000th time and I also decided to pick up three houses. They have green lesbians in that game… I need to wife Rhea… are you KIDDING?? And I want to cosplay these lovely ladies…

 I actually was into and still kind of am into cosplay these days, but I was more into going into cons and socializing until … that event last year … but my friends Dev and Gary have helped me fall back in love with them more… I’m going to a con next week!! And with EJ and I creating a craft room, I am so excited at the idea of making cosplays again. I think I’ve repressed the thought that I could wear cool costumes and make cool things… I really want to, there is such a joy in the creation of things… 

I def will still be a gal, but I think maybe this shift will help me not give into the urge to buy scalped pieces and wear what I have. I will probably try to wear gal to a con once in awhile… but maybe that just turns into the casual outfits.

All I can hope is all goes well in life!!